It's very difficult for a person to understand another's level of impairment due to the way they were both raised.
I like the Buddhist idea that everything suffers. I used to believe that some people didn't, and those who did, suffered according to the trauma they endured, and were on my scale. For instance, my friend's sister, who was crushed when she got a brand new Mercury Montaro, instead of the Jeep Grand Cherokee that she wanted, didn't really suffer according to me; she just threw a fit. It was an important, and difficult lesson, when I understood that she really felt suffering. Her scale was much different than mine. I would like people to understand this, because I feel like a failure most of the time, because I can't work, and do things the way most do. I struggle to get basic things done daily. I have to muster motivation, and my memory is really bad. I am mentally handicapped. Not in the sense that comes to mind with that phrase, though. My IQ tests around 135. I just don't have the drive to do anything with it.
I try so hard, just to appear okay.
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